ithCapt's Longhouse: Recovery from Drug Addiction.
Capt Says:
January 23, 2010 at 7:56 pm
howdy mat,
,,,what is the effect of pill kuda as compared to heroin ? coz. my crew still is on it !.,,,when he is not on his horse ride, his attitude towards work is so negative but when high riding will work is guts out non stop like crazy. in fact, hyper creative too and i have to hold him back from his too many initiatives, half finish most times too, lacking in priorities and bloody mean as times in language with others !!,,,vert taxing too for me to handle some of his changing moods but am a brutal guy so he knows when to stop being funny when my body language plus advise/comment reach a point too. The problem with meself is, 99% am cool but that 1% am totally bloody physical and its the ICU for some that had unfortunately crossed that line ! (sorry, am just being bloody honest yaa)..its my way during the 1% period, no mercy whatsoever and wheresoever and whosoever too. BUT it has produced positive results and failures. The change in mindset must come from within oneself, am just a helping hands..big brother kind off only. The 1% factor keeps command & control in place too. hehehe !!…. scary scary indeed but its for real and they bloody know it too b4 its too late for some !.
cheers mate,
Capt.
Mat Cendana Says:
January 24, 2010 at 12:04 am
Actually you have already answered the question you had posed about pil kuda as compared to heroin! Pil kuda aka methamphetamine – it makes the user aggressive. Notice the “work his guts out”. It’s legal in some countries where you can buy it with a doctor’s prescription. Some lorry/bus drivers take it to remain alert.
The `good’ thing about it is that it doesn’t result in physical addiction; in the sense that you will hurt during withdrawal. However, the mental addiction is powerful enough to make you lethargic and dispirited. If there’s a `choice’ here somewhere, I’d much prefer someone to be using it rather than heroin/morphine. Not that I’m saying it’s okay, but only as “the lesser evil”.
Heroin (and morphine too, of course) – The effect is more subtle. It actually makes one at peace with anything and everything. Results in enthusiasm when doing something, like pil kuda too – minus the aggressiveness. But the withdrawal – I wouldn’t wish it on an enemy.
Capt Says: January 24, 2010 at 2:05 am
Thanks Mat,
,,,you gave me the feedback that reconfirmed my take too on subject matter with regards to the lesser devil, for my advise to this guy is, if he ever get back to heroin then its the marching order to walk the plank as far as am concerned. Period !,,,what about their inner urge to steal ?. Since most of them have had some experience in taking things without permission in-order to get the money to support their addiction !.,,,in this case, he is well paid for the job on the island and everything else are being cater for. In fact, money is the least of an issue and I make sure that its catered for accordingly with bonus for term breaks/holidays. The only issue is that once he is back on the main land, he will finish off all his hard earned cash within one or max. 3 x days !. That is beyond my control but very stupid of him-lah.,,,my concern is does his ’stealing’ mindset still very strongly ingrained because of his pill kuda habits ?. Can we trust him from engaging in such activities again ?. How would he promised yet lie about it !?. How much trust can we have on such matters, indeed its a personal issue but lets look/view at it in general from an drug addict angle/perspective-lah.,,,tell me more about the ‘mindset’ of such individuals from your close experience with such characters. So that I can have even more appreciation of subject matter too.
regards,
Capt.
Capt Says:
January 23, 2010 at 7:56 pm
howdy mat,
,,,what is the effect of pill kuda as compared to heroin ? coz. my crew still is on it !.,,,when he is not on his horse ride, his attitude towards work is so negative but when high riding will work is guts out non stop like crazy. in fact, hyper creative too and i have to hold him back from his too many initiatives, half finish most times too, lacking in priorities and bloody mean as times in language with others !!,,,vert taxing too for me to handle some of his changing moods but am a brutal guy so he knows when to stop being funny when my body language plus advise/comment reach a point too. The problem with meself is, 99% am cool but that 1% am totally bloody physical and its the ICU for some that had unfortunately crossed that line ! (sorry, am just being bloody honest yaa)..its my way during the 1% period, no mercy whatsoever and wheresoever and whosoever too. BUT it has produced positive results and failures. The change in mindset must come from within oneself, am just a helping hands..big brother kind off only. The 1% factor keeps command & control in place too. hehehe !!…. scary scary indeed but its for real and they bloody know it too b4 its too late for some !.
cheers mate,
Capt.
Mat Cendana Says:
January 24, 2010 at 12:04 am
Actually you have already answered the question you had posed about pil kuda as compared to heroin! Pil kuda aka methamphetamine – it makes the user aggressive. Notice the “work his guts out”. It’s legal in some countries where you can buy it with a doctor’s prescription. Some lorry/bus drivers take it to remain alert.
The `good’ thing about it is that it doesn’t result in physical addiction; in the sense that you will hurt during withdrawal. However, the mental addiction is powerful enough to make you lethargic and dispirited. If there’s a `choice’ here somewhere, I’d much prefer someone to be using it rather than heroin/morphine. Not that I’m saying it’s okay, but only as “the lesser evil”.
Heroin (and morphine too, of course) – The effect is more subtle. It actually makes one at peace with anything and everything. Results in enthusiasm when doing something, like pil kuda too – minus the aggressiveness. But the withdrawal – I wouldn’t wish it on an enemy.
Capt Says: January 24, 2010 at 2:05 am
Thanks Mat,
,,,you gave me the feedback that reconfirmed my take too on subject matter with regards to the lesser devil, for my advise to this guy is, if he ever get back to heroin then its the marching order to walk the plank as far as am concerned. Period !,,,what about their inner urge to steal ?. Since most of them have had some experience in taking things without permission in-order to get the money to support their addiction !.,,,in this case, he is well paid for the job on the island and everything else are being cater for. In fact, money is the least of an issue and I make sure that its catered for accordingly with bonus for term breaks/holidays. The only issue is that once he is back on the main land, he will finish off all his hard earned cash within one or max. 3 x days !. That is beyond my control but very stupid of him-lah.,,,my concern is does his ’stealing’ mindset still very strongly ingrained because of his pill kuda habits ?. Can we trust him from engaging in such activities again ?. How would he promised yet lie about it !?. How much trust can we have on such matters, indeed its a personal issue but lets look/view at it in general from an drug addict angle/perspective-lah.,,,tell me more about the ‘mindset’ of such individuals from your close experience with such characters. So that I can have even more appreciation of subject matter too.
regards,
Capt.
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ReplyDeleteMat Cendana Says:
January 25, 2010 at 11:00 pm
This is a very difficult comment to reply. I had been thinking about the questions since almost two days ago. However, I can’t give answers that I’m confident of, in that I’m “very sure”. So, these are the next best: “reasonably sure”.
Their “inner urge to steal” – I’m sure you can attest from your own experiences that it’s not limited to addicts. I’ve known people who weren’t addicted to anything – in fact, they are `normal’, respectable – who’d steal “when the object is desirable enough AND WHEN THERE’S A CHANCE” to commit it and get away undetected. In the end, it boils down to each individual’s level of honesty, which is decided by how high (or low) his spirituality is.
That said, if he’s addicted, then the chances are “he most likely will”. It might be another matter if he’s no more addicted.
However, even if that’s the case, he might still do it due to another factor – habit… especially when “the chance is there”. Previously, he might do so actively, in that he seeks the opportunities. Now, it might be “passive” – he isn’t looking to do it, but since the chance is there… So, in your situation, make sure of covering this; don’t present him with chances that will test his temptation.
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Capt Says:
January 26, 2010 at 12:51 am
thanks again Matey,
,,,indeed ‘if the chance is there’, would be the key factor for this case in time.
,,,puts me in a tight spot cos the lifestyle and living on the island is based on one’s freedom with oneself and nature. Morality and honesty is also within the individual which I can’t control on anyone’s behalf.
,,,our malaysian hospitality is what makes my houseguests appreciate and value their stay at Capt’s Longhouse on Kapas Island plus indeed the beautiful island itself.
,,,but stealing is a crime, and its very hard to tolerate or forgive, which is the main issue with some of my ex-crew members and now having to be extra extra careful!. Its the ‘criminal mindset’ ingrained in some that is again up to them to want to change themselves for the better. Similarly as to their daily battle against drug addiction habits less the withdrawal, I guess !. But they should do it at the ATM from their monthly salary-lah. Plus in this particular case, he is very well paid too.
,,,So no good reason to ‘kebas’ anything from anybody indeed.
,,,
Mat,
ReplyDelete,,,interestingly similar experience from what i gathered from another ex-crew of mine, who unfortunately could not contiunue his stay at Capt’s Longhouse since he was caught stealing just too often to support his heroin addiction. In fact, he was too ‘termalu’ and ’segan’ to remain as my crew after admiting to such stealings.
,,,that ‘eyes’ you mentioned, indeed it has lots of anger/frustration look from what i observed from this ex-crew but upon getting his shots, he is back to so called ‘normal self’ yet not so normal or correct self.
,,,self justification plus ‘blame game’ mindset cum mentality and later ’stuff-you attitude’ of heroin takers appeared kind of similar in most cases from my observations. Interestingly this behavour pattern leads to ‘ganging’ of like minded individuals together and becomes very very sensitive plus emotional in their group thinking too. Its the ‘they’ against ‘us’ mindset that keeps them together come rain or sunshine.
,,,in fact, i noticed the individual become very sharp in thinking for self preservation but timid to voice out their individual concerns if any. Protectively silence, if i may add.
,,,what i need to appreciate more from you Mat, is how to be aware of and that at what stage when ‘they’ are willing to cause bodily harm to other ? o.k. not at when they have a bloody parang on their hands but how far before that top event-lah !.
cheers,
Capt.
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Mat Cendana Says:
January 25, 2010 at 7:52 pm
“Its the ‘they’ against ‘us’ mindset…
Us and Them – This is one of the songs in Pink Floyd’s album of Dark Side of the Moon in 1973, which is in the Top 10 Best Album of all-time…
I’ll get back to this after I reply your previous comment. That one required a lot of thinking and flashbacks of past experiences.
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Mat Cendana Says:
January 25, 2010 at 11:17 pm
Capt, your observation is very sharp and accurate! I had thought people would not be aware of this – the `us and them’ psyche. This ganging up has the potential to be dangerous to others, for there will be times when the group is outraged by something others said or did and the whole gang will be out to avenge `the wrong’. I’ve known of addicts who would destroy someone’s property due to this.
The problem here is that they are unpredictable – you never quite know when they will explode. But one source that will help is knowing who is the leader; the most influential person. You’ll also observe that most are `pak turut’ – you are right about them being timid with their individual opinions (This is also one reason for most of the riots in pusat serenti – most `just follow’). Essentially, if you can get to the leader, then the whole group is amenable.
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Wow! To have someone base a whole post on what I had written!.. There's one more comment from you that I was only aware of a couple of days ago (was having problems with the laptop and connection; and now I have to make up for four days of work)... It's about one guy going to court this week(?) for that 40 grams of ganja.
ReplyDeleteYou had mentioned (roughly), "Might it not be better if he's sent to pusat?"
Hold one, I need to know something - Is he granted bail? If so, that's quite a surprise, for the amount is "quite a lot". This is `comparatively speaking', of course..as per our drugs laws. With this case, I doubt he's also charged under the Drug Dependants Act 1983 (Section 6, I think). So, there's absolutely no question of being sent to pusat.
This must be drug possession under the Dangerous Drugs Act 1952. I don't have this act with me - if it's heroin/morphine, it's under s. 12(2) with a maximum prison term of 5 years; or/and fine of.. RM20,000(?). I'm also aware there's a specific section for ganja which is almost similar with 12(2).
Higher up the scale, there's the 39A(1). If it's 39A(2), I doubt if bail would have been given. Usually, this is what people originally charged under the 39B mandatory death sentence would have theirs amended to when the prosecution couldn't prove the `intended to distribute' part.
dear Mat,
ReplyDelete,,,yes, he was out on bail after spending 1 week or so in jail and indeed he was distributing the stuff to his elderly friends according to him ! Maybe I got it mixed up, about 38 grams or section 38 something related to ganja !.
,,,since his last court case, i have nil news on his wheresoabout too !. Will try to find out once am back on the main land. Its a great pity, since he was doing fine as a land broker, making an honest living, after spending 2 tours at Capt's Longhouse with me. In fact, a pretty success case that I felt proud of, for his own sake. An intelligent guy, very hard working....yet somehow was caught with ganja in this room this time round !. His lawyer is laughing to the bank, from the looks of it too !!
Drug Addiction is now a global problem. This social cancer has spread its poisonous claw all over the world. Frustration is the cause of this Addiction unemployment problem, political cataclysm, lack of family ties, lack of love affection etc gives rise to frustration. Again this addiction gives rise to social crimes. When the addicted can’t afford to buy drugs, they commit many kinds of social crimes. Like hijacking, looting, plundering, killing, robbery etc. Drugs bear a terrible effect on human body. They kill them slowly but surely. No physician can stop the changes that take place in the body of a drug addict. Drug addicted people feel drowsy, lose appetite and sleep. The skins of their bodies began change it’s color. Drugs also damage the brain and all internal function of the body.
ReplyDeleteHowever this curse shouldn’t be allowed to go on unchecked. At any cost we must get rid of this social cancer by highlighting its dangerous effects on human body and society. The remedy for drug addiction is not very easy. Greed of drug traders has grasped the whole world. Drug business should must be is punishable and the highest punishment is death sentence in any Country. This law must be enforced immediately. Our young generation must be aware of the dire consequence of drug abuse. Parents must be careful of their treatment to children. Feelings of security under loving parents may hinder children from being victims of drugs. Religious and social values must be taught from early childhood. When each and every person is sincere to drive this curse of drug addiction from the society, human beings can get rid of it.
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