ithCapt's Longhouse: Recovery from Drug Addiction.
Capt Says:
January 23, 2010 at 7:56 pm
howdy mat,
,,,what is the effect of pill kuda as compared to heroin ? coz. my crew still is on it !.,,,when he is not on his horse ride, his attitude towards work is so negative but when high riding will work is guts out non stop like crazy. in fact, hyper creative too and i have to hold him back from his too many initiatives, half finish most times too, lacking in priorities and bloody mean as times in language with others !!,,,vert taxing too for me to handle some of his changing moods but am a brutal guy so he knows when to stop being funny when my body language plus advise/comment reach a point too. The problem with meself is, 99% am cool but that 1% am totally bloody physical and its the ICU for some that had unfortunately crossed that line ! (sorry, am just being bloody honest yaa)..its my way during the 1% period, no mercy whatsoever and wheresoever and whosoever too. BUT it has produced positive results and failures. The change in mindset must come from within oneself, am just a helping hands..big brother kind off only. The 1% factor keeps command & control in place too. hehehe !!…. scary scary indeed but its for real and they bloody know it too b4 its too late for some !.
cheers mate,
Capt.
Mat Cendana Says:
January 24, 2010 at 12:04 am
Actually you have already answered the question you had posed about pil kuda as compared to heroin! Pil kuda aka methamphetamine – it makes the user aggressive. Notice the “work his guts out”. It’s legal in some countries where you can buy it with a doctor’s prescription. Some lorry/bus drivers take it to remain alert.
The `good’ thing about it is that it doesn’t result in physical addiction; in the sense that you will hurt during withdrawal. However, the mental addiction is powerful enough to make you lethargic and dispirited. If there’s a `choice’ here somewhere, I’d much prefer someone to be using it rather than heroin/morphine. Not that I’m saying it’s okay, but only as “the lesser evil”.
Heroin (and morphine too, of course) – The effect is more subtle. It actually makes one at peace with anything and everything. Results in enthusiasm when doing something, like pil kuda too – minus the aggressiveness. But the withdrawal – I wouldn’t wish it on an enemy.
Capt Says: January 24, 2010 at 2:05 am
Thanks Mat,
,,,you gave me the feedback that reconfirmed my take too on subject matter with regards to the lesser devil, for my advise to this guy is, if he ever get back to heroin then its the marching order to walk the plank as far as am concerned. Period !,,,what about their inner urge to steal ?. Since most of them have had some experience in taking things without permission in-order to get the money to support their addiction !.,,,in this case, he is well paid for the job on the island and everything else are being cater for. In fact, money is the least of an issue and I make sure that its catered for accordingly with bonus for term breaks/holidays. The only issue is that once he is back on the main land, he will finish off all his hard earned cash within one or max. 3 x days !. That is beyond my control but very stupid of him-lah.,,,my concern is does his ’stealing’ mindset still very strongly ingrained because of his pill kuda habits ?. Can we trust him from engaging in such activities again ?. How would he promised yet lie about it !?. How much trust can we have on such matters, indeed its a personal issue but lets look/view at it in general from an drug addict angle/perspective-lah.,,,tell me more about the ‘mindset’ of such individuals from your close experience with such characters. So that I can have even more appreciation of subject matter too.
regards,
Capt.
Capt Says:
January 23, 2010 at 7:56 pm
howdy mat,
,,,what is the effect of pill kuda as compared to heroin ? coz. my crew still is on it !.,,,when he is not on his horse ride, his attitude towards work is so negative but when high riding will work is guts out non stop like crazy. in fact, hyper creative too and i have to hold him back from his too many initiatives, half finish most times too, lacking in priorities and bloody mean as times in language with others !!,,,vert taxing too for me to handle some of his changing moods but am a brutal guy so he knows when to stop being funny when my body language plus advise/comment reach a point too. The problem with meself is, 99% am cool but that 1% am totally bloody physical and its the ICU for some that had unfortunately crossed that line ! (sorry, am just being bloody honest yaa)..its my way during the 1% period, no mercy whatsoever and wheresoever and whosoever too. BUT it has produced positive results and failures. The change in mindset must come from within oneself, am just a helping hands..big brother kind off only. The 1% factor keeps command & control in place too. hehehe !!…. scary scary indeed but its for real and they bloody know it too b4 its too late for some !.
cheers mate,
Capt.
Mat Cendana Says:
January 24, 2010 at 12:04 am
Actually you have already answered the question you had posed about pil kuda as compared to heroin! Pil kuda aka methamphetamine – it makes the user aggressive. Notice the “work his guts out”. It’s legal in some countries where you can buy it with a doctor’s prescription. Some lorry/bus drivers take it to remain alert.
The `good’ thing about it is that it doesn’t result in physical addiction; in the sense that you will hurt during withdrawal. However, the mental addiction is powerful enough to make you lethargic and dispirited. If there’s a `choice’ here somewhere, I’d much prefer someone to be using it rather than heroin/morphine. Not that I’m saying it’s okay, but only as “the lesser evil”.
Heroin (and morphine too, of course) – The effect is more subtle. It actually makes one at peace with anything and everything. Results in enthusiasm when doing something, like pil kuda too – minus the aggressiveness. But the withdrawal – I wouldn’t wish it on an enemy.
Capt Says: January 24, 2010 at 2:05 am
Thanks Mat,
,,,you gave me the feedback that reconfirmed my take too on subject matter with regards to the lesser devil, for my advise to this guy is, if he ever get back to heroin then its the marching order to walk the plank as far as am concerned. Period !,,,what about their inner urge to steal ?. Since most of them have had some experience in taking things without permission in-order to get the money to support their addiction !.,,,in this case, he is well paid for the job on the island and everything else are being cater for. In fact, money is the least of an issue and I make sure that its catered for accordingly with bonus for term breaks/holidays. The only issue is that once he is back on the main land, he will finish off all his hard earned cash within one or max. 3 x days !. That is beyond my control but very stupid of him-lah.,,,my concern is does his ’stealing’ mindset still very strongly ingrained because of his pill kuda habits ?. Can we trust him from engaging in such activities again ?. How would he promised yet lie about it !?. How much trust can we have on such matters, indeed its a personal issue but lets look/view at it in general from an drug addict angle/perspective-lah.,,,tell me more about the ‘mindset’ of such individuals from your close experience with such characters. So that I can have even more appreciation of subject matter too.
regards,
Capt.
